Thursday, 31 January 2013

It's true



It's comforting to know that God is in control of the good times and the tough times of life.
We face difficulties but God knows exactly what we're going through. 
God will not allow a storm unless he has a divine purpose for it.

Romans 8:28

In all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.

God will direct the winds of storm to blow you where He wants you to go.

We see storms as being negative, but God uses them to move you from point A to point B.
The winds may be strong, the circumstances may look bad, but those winds will blow you to a new level of you destiny. 

Monday, 7 January 2013

24/7

Just a thought,

I've watched tons of movies about this girl or boy who has that one friend that they can count on. That they could do everything together.
I always wonder, damn. Is  this even possible?

It's always this case, that the guy ends up liking the girl or the girl has some issues with the friend.

I wish for that one friend. That you could literally talk about anything EVERYTHING. Cry with them get mad with them. Try everything with them.
Someone that I could trust. Someone that i'm not afraid to talk about whatever shit that's going on and not be afraid that they'll bitch it to other people.
I've never had that moment when I could just let everything out. I've always been on my guard. No one knows me. Heck sometimes i dont even know whats going on in my damned mind.
People ask me why i'm so quiet most of the time. Yea, cause I don't want you to go bullshitting about me to other people that's why. 
I've came to the terms that no one could be trusted. Honestly, the bullshit that people come up with about you sometimes. It's incredible.  
Maybe that's why I actually prefer being alone. There's enough shit to handle. I don't need drama. But then it get's lonely too.
I'd like someone to travel the world with. 
I'd like to have that friend that I could call at 2am in the morning and just bullshit. Or go out somewhere, lie on a huge ass field and just watch the stars.

Go on impromptu trips. Just drive without a destination. 

Like a companion for 24/7 that you won't get sick off. There won't be jealousy, there won't be conflicts. Just two friends. 

Is he or she out there ? Cause I really need one right now.

Thank God FOR BLOGS, at least they don't judge you.





Monday, 31 December 2012

Welcoming a new year !

It's 2013 already ? This is insane ! Anyway, lets recap what happened last year. Gosh saying that sound so weird.

February~ Travelled for more than 16 hours across the world to England! A dream come true for me especially! Touched down at Heathrow airport, 2 hours bus ride to Brighton and met up with the dear brother! Had a wonderful time travelling to Cheltham, Bath, London etc places! Experience first hand what snowing was like :) hung out with them Brits! Awesome experience

March~ Left home for the first time to Tasmania, Australia for foundation studies. Stopped by at Melbourne had a splendid time with Ronan and Sis. Arrived at Hobart! Met some interesting characters, experienced some awesome and not so lovely situations, learnt a heck lot about my self as well as the world. Had fun! Achieved good results! what more can i ask ? :) Shout out to some awesome ppl who made life much nicer at Hobart, - Mia , Junyu, Danis and dear pearl as well as soul church which I miss the most :) 8 months abroad ! One heck of a ride !

November ~ Flew to KL with Jacob and Sean! Had a wonderful time together eating, shopping and bonding :)
Signed up for driving licence ! Met up with school friends had a wonderful reunion ! Hung out with the youths!

December~ Awesome youth camp Reloaded 2012 met friendly and interesting people! Had a great time!
2 days of exciting carolling with the Reloaded youths!
Went for diving lessons and qualified for Open Water Diving licence on the 30th December! Got burnt by the sun but. Alls good!
Spent New Years with the family!
KISS GOODBYE TO AN AWESOME 2012 :))))
Thank you God for everything !
~ Alexis

















Monday, 27 February 2012

A new chapter

It's been almost 5 days since I got back from the United Kingdom :)
And since then I've been Experiencing jet lag, unable to sleep during the night . Which is driving me up the wall.
So, right now it's 3am and I'm writing this.
Well, time passes by real fast and it's 9 days till I'm flying off to Melbourne.
A new chapter in life shall begin for me. I'm really excited but also afraid at the same time.
Being away from the shelter of a home and from my parents will be hard.
But I guess that's the part where I need to learn to be independent and grow up.
I'm just really thankful and grateful for The sacrifices that my mum and dad had to do to give me this opportunity to study in Australia. It's a chance that not many people get and some could only dream of.
I just hope that they will be blessed throughout their lives because they are the greatest parents of all times.
The amount of work they go through to support the education of 3 children is really tough. I know this by seeing how hard they work.
Sometimes it saddens me to watch them pour out their heart and soul into our future that seems so uncertain.
It scares me to think that what if I fail. Their effort would be put to waste.
But all I can do is trust that God who loves my family and I has a plan and his plans are greater than anything and that through his time he will do what is best for this family.
I just hope and pray that I'll be able to do well and excel in everything, get a good job and make my parents proud.
I know times will be difficult, I know that there are many things that I have to handle alone. But He who is in me is greater than the world.
Going away and facing the world alone in a new environment will be difficult .. But I have my Lord and Saviour with me. And he will lead me through this because I trust in him and his ways.
I hope to reassure my parents that, I may be shy and timid and weak but I'm certain that when needed I will be able to look after myself. I've not seen what's out there I've not experienced it. But they brought up a girl who is wise because my parents are wise in many ways.
I know that when I set foot on that plane, there's no turning back. My bar has to be raised and I cannot be who I was back then.
I can only pray that God will lead me through all the trials that I know are bound to come. And also pray that my faith will be strong to overcome these tumbling walls.
I love you MUM and DAD
I Thankyou for your sacrifices
I wanna say I will make you proud
I am sorry for the crap I always put you through
I hope you'll one day be able to enjoy life without any more worries
XXXXXXXOOOOOOO

Wednesday, 18 January 2012

Forever and always

Forever and always

The air was filled with sweet poignant aroma of roses and honeysuckles. The painted blue sky had dollops of pearly white clouds that shimmered brightly as the sun rays penetrated them. Silent whispers intertwine with the morning breeze as guests greeted one another and took their seat as they waited for the big moment of the day to arrive.

Hidden behind a curtained sliding door was where I stood fidgeting nervously. I looked at myself through the reflection of the glass cabinet and saw a woman, no longer the daddy’s girl, no longer the little girl who threw tantrums when she wanted something badly. But a grown woman in her mid twenties, a woman with a youthful complexion, sparkly eyes and a body enveloped by a white laced satin dress that made its way down to the floor. Looking at my reflection, I was amazed at how much has changed this few years. Everything seemed to be falling bits and pieces into place and I couldn’t have imagined that I’d be getting married today!

Out of the corner of my eyes I see my dad, his wrinkles deepened as he furrows his eye brows and paces back and forth. Glancing at his Cartier watch now and again, shifting his tie, shuffling his feet. I could see how nervous he was, who wouldn’t be I thought to myself. It was his youngest daughter’s wedding day! I walk over and gave a gentle squeeze on his shoulders just to reassure him that everything would be fine. His frown loosened at the sight of me and he gave a little hesitant nod of head.

I walked back to the sliding door where I was to make my entrance. Peeping behind the curtains I scanned the garden and found the person who made my heart skip a beat whenever I see him, my soon to be husband. He was standing beneath a white wooden arch decorated with beautiful flowers of many kinds. A black Armani suit enhanced his well built figure; his hazelnut colored hair with streaks of gold was styled neatly and his blue sapphire eyes shown brilliantly in the morning sun. His mouth widened into a broad smile as his eyes found mine, a hot flushed sensation shot right up my face as I quickly pulled away from the curtain embarrassed.

I reminisced back to the first day when he managed to make my cheeks burn hot red. It was a chilly spring morning; as usual I ate a bowl of cereal and headed out to the St Morrs mountain trail where I always have my morning walks. Making my way up the hill, I glanced around and took in the surroundings. Flowers were blooming everywhere. A little stream made its way through little rocks and pebbles down the slope. Squirrels scrambled up looming pine trees at the sight of me. Humming my favorite song, I slowly made progress up the hill. Until my journey came to a halt when the skies suddenly turned grey and a gust of wind made its way through the lush green rain trees. I was taken aback by the sudden change of weather, the skies then let loose torrents of rain. I didn’t want to be caught in the storm that was brewing, hurrying down the slippery slope I failed to realize a protruding root on the ground and tripped and fell sprawling over.

A jeering pain shot right up my left ankle. This was a bad situation, I tried to stand but the pain was too immense that I fell back down. My heart raced as the rain was getting heavier and the trees swayed dangerously above me. Just when I was about to give up hope, a figure appeared and somehow everything went by in a slow motion. It was as if a knight appeared in front of me on a white horse but in reality he was just a man in Addidas sports attire wearing Nikey runners. Though he was drenched in rain water, I couldn’t help but notice how stunning he looked and how well built was his physique. Suddenly the horror of the moment was forgotten as I lost myself in a hurried awkward daydream.

“Hey, you alright? Can you walk?” the man shouted trying to make himself heard amidst the pouring rain. I was jolted back to my senses and felt a hotness rush up my head. “My ankle hurts” I squeaked. “Here, climb on my back I’ll give you a lift, hurry!” he said.

I clambered up his back and he lifted me up as if I weightless. Slowly and carefully he made his way down the hill with me on his back. Within a few minutes we got to the entrance of the trail. “We’ll take shelter in my car and wait for the storm to pass” he turned and said. I nodded half heartedly. I couldn’t say no because there weren’t any shelters around and I had no car.

He carried me towards the only car on the driveway and it was a Range rover sport edition. I got into the car hurriedly and accidently applied too much pressure on my injured ankle. The sharp pain sent shock waves up my spine and I bit my tongue trying to hold back the agony. The man got into the driver’s seat and quickly shut the door. He let out a long huff and said “Well, I didn’t see that coming.” “Neither did I.” I said. He looked at me for a moment and it made me feel self conscious. Here I was with a gorgeous looking guy and I’m drenched from head to toe, covered with mud due to the fall. I felt the urge to scramble out of the car and hide in the woods but it was as if a ton of metal had been placed on my feet and I couldn’t move.

“My names Nathan, what yours?” he said as he turned to the backseat and took out a towel and handed it to me. Taking the towel, I said silently “My names Naomi.” “Thank you, by the way, for just now.” I said as I wiped off the mud on my hands and knees. “Sure, no problem.” he said and smiled. I swore at that moment, my heart stopped. My insides fluttered, I wanted to burst out laughing because it seemed too good to be true and things like this normally only happens in the movies, I bit back my sudden splurge of insanity. “How did you get here? Do you have a car?”He said. I shook my head and told him I came by bus. Nathan went silent for a moment then said, I’ll take you to the clinic, you need to get your ankle checked on. “No, don’t bother. I’m sure it’s nothing to worry about, I’ll be fine. Honestly. ”I said. Nathan shook his head, “Now what kind of guy would I be if I’d let you just leave with that messed up ankle of yours?” He said. The car came to life as he turned on the ignition and exited the park.

The rain eased and the winds subsided, but the throbbing pain in my ankle intensified. A slight shift of my ankle sent pain waves across my body. We finally came to a clinic and I was treated for a dislocated ankle. Some small scratches on my elbows and knees were cleaned and patched up with plasters and my ankle was swathed with bandages. After taking pain medication, the pain in my ankle eased and I could stand up right again.

After that, Nathan dropped me off at my house. As he helped me out of the car, I didn’t want this to end. I wanted to rewind and go through the day once more but I couldn’t. “Thank you again for everything.”I said. Nathan shrugged and gave me a gentle pat on my shoulder, “Sure thing, you take care Naomi.” Reluctantly I turned away and made my way to the door, Nathan got into his car and gave a wave and drove away into the distance slowly his tail lights faded away. I heaved a sigh and went into the house and shut the door. The day passed by as I played the whole scene over and over again in my mind. It was a melancholic moment but I realized how pathetic I was and so each day passed and I managed to somehow put away that memory into a corner of my mind and it was forgotten for a moment.

Until one day, by fate or whatever you want to call it. Nathan and I met again.

It was a sunny afternoon, Jayson my best friend and I visited the Formula 1 Grand Prix World Tour Madrid. The whole place was crowded, fuel filled the air and the sun was blazing hot. We were making our way through the crowd of people who flocked around the competitors taking photographs and autographs when I heard a voice that I recognized. It was deep voice with a tint of softness and then I heard his chuckle, turning towards the sound that’s when I saw him. Nathan was dressed in his suit looking brilliant as ever, perspiration was vivid on his forehead. As cheesy as it sounds, my heart literally stopped at the sight of him. Then, his head turned and his blue sapphire eyes caught mine. Immediately the hot sensation shot right up my head again. His eyes sparkled and he smiled. Tilting his head to the side, “Hey! You’re…” He said as he made his way towards me. “Naomi, I’m Naomi.”I blurted. “Yeah, I remember you. How are you?” He said. “I’m fine.” I said as I glanced around at the crowd. He must be famous I thought to myself at the sight of wide eyed women snapping pictures of him whispering to one another. “So, you’re a fan of racing?” He said as he wiped the sweat on his forehead with the back of his hand. “Well, not in particular. I just love the cars and the free corn dogs.”I said. Nathan laughed “Yeah, I heard they’re really good!” Shifting his weight on his left feet, Nathan waved at a man whom I presumed was one of his team mates. “I have to go, would you like to go out for a cup of coffee or something?” I was taken aback by his question and franticly searched for an answer. “Sss..Sure, I guess.” “Cool, maybe tomorrow at 12, I’ll pick you up from your place.” “Ok.”I nodded and said. Smiling he gave me a gentle squeeze on my shoulder and left. I stood there in the crowd dazed at what just happened. Before my mind wandered any further, I felt a slight nudge. “What are you doing?”My friend Jayson asked as he waved his hand in my face. I gave him a scowl and said nothing. “C’mon, the race’s about to start.” He said. We made our way towards the seat and the race began. As quickly as it started, the race ended. Nathan took first place in the race.

That following night, I couldn’t sleep. I was tossing and turning on my bed anxious for our coffee date tomorrow.

Finally the day came; my room was a mess as I dug into my closet for the right clothing to wear. I dressed up in casual but still sophisticated attire and waited for Nathan.

At 12 on the dot, Nathan pulled up in front of my house in his black GranTurismo MC Stradale. “Hello!” Nathan said cheerfully. “I hope you didn’t wait long.” “No, you’re just on time. Nice ride.”I added.

We stopped in front of Del’Maria café and got a table inside the café. It was a cozy café, wall lights hung dimly on brick walls and the aroma of coffee beans filled the air. The melody of pensive adagio flowed through the entire room giving a laid back atmosphere to the place.

After our brew arrived we started talking, having conversations about ourselves. We joked and laughed; it was what you can say as the best first date ever.

A cup of coffee led to lunch and then dinner, walks in the park, picnics and barbeques. Fishing trips, mountain hikes and backpacking across continents. We met up with family members, close relatives and friends. Soon enough, a strong and secure relationship developed. Though in every relationship there was strains and short bickering, but we made it through those times.

Two years into our relationship and Nathan finally proposed. It wasn’t the kind of proposal that you’d see in fairytale movies but it was all the more sweet and surprising.

There we were having a candle lit dinner by the beach when out of the blue Nathan took my hand, he knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said:

“I know it must been hard to see me leave you now and then for tours around the world. But I can’t thank you enough for sticking by me through those times. I can’t promise that I’ll be the best husband, but I’m willing to try because I love you; I hope you feel the same way too. Naomi, will you marry me? ”

Tears rimmed my eyes and I nodded, “Yes, I will.”I croaked.

I was jolted back to my senses when my sister whom was also my bridesmaid gave me a slight shake, “Get ready, it’s starting.”She said.

Hurriedly, I took my place behind the door. The live band started playing the wedding piece and I took my first step out the door, into a new chapter of life, by Gods grace, into a married life filled with love and joy. As I walked steadily with my dad on my heels, I glanced at Nathan. He was beaming from ear to ear, eyes fixed on me. I could see his love for me just by him standing there because his eyes say it all. As I arrived at his side, my dad placed my hand over to Nathans and I looked at my dad, tears welled up in his eyes. I embraced him and planted a soft peck on his cheeks and he returned to his chair next to my mother and brother.

Hand in hand we turned to face the pastor; he spoke of God’s love and of what it takes to lead a God centered marriage life. The pastor proceeded to give an illustration of love: “A pair of eagle mates for life, it never leaves one another. When a chick dies, the distressed female eagle would freefall off a cliff and the male eagle would swoop down the cliff and supports its mate with his back and brings her back to the nest where they would mourn the death of their chick. As husband and wife, whenever one of the two goes through hard times, the other should be there to support and show love towards the other. ” Then, following the pastor we exchanged our vows in front of our family, relatives and friends. Finally, we had on our rings and kissed.

The congregation all stood up and applauded, some whistled and cheered. While others smiled and laughed merrily.

I looked up at my husband and felt a tear make its way down my cheeks. Nathan gently wiped the tear away with his fingers and planted a kiss on my forehead. We didn’t need to say anything to one another, we knew it by heart. We were filled with love, a love that only God could give and a love by Gods grace that will last. Forever and always.

The end

Written by Alexis Soo

19January2012

Tuesday, 13 December 2011

A day at the hospital

So recently due to according what the Dr says stress about SPM , I haven't been feeling very well.
Some of yall may know that I have this problem of getting gastric/ acid stomach whenever I skip a meal, stressed out Bout something or even too exhausted.
So, it's alrdy about a month and my symptoms are still around. I'm not 100% back to myself. So, mum got me an appointment at the Hospital.
Arrived at the hospital , got my weight and height recorded. Sat down on the waiting lounge and mum went back to work. Was there for quite sometime and people of all ages started walking in. Bt mostly elderlies. I felt so uncomfortable. I scanned the room and saw an elderly guy standing. So I decided to do what's right and gave him my seat. He kindly refused and smiled bt I insisted that he sit and I went to a corner took out my book and read.
Waited for God knows how long and during that duration, I observed the elderlies there. Thought to myself, it's such a pity. That they have to wait for their turn and it's taking such a long time! They were old, they were much sicker than I was, some were on wheelchairs and on drips. Some had to stand and wait. I mean I get tired standing , what more the older ones ? And the lovely young lads there wouldn't even give up their seats. Talk about where their moral values went to ? ( ps: that's why it's a waste of time teaching moral when ppl don't even give a damn to practice it!)
And the hospital?! How much does it even cost to install more chairs ? It's not like it's so expensive ?
This is absurd ! Seriously, what a shame. There's so much spaces in the waiting area and yet it's empty.
And then there's the construction of the hospital that really ticks me off!
Uneven stairway where the stairs are not of the same height and dimension. The surface area is so darn small it doesn't even fit a whole leg of mine ! Talk about service to the citizens. Talk about citizens being the first priority! Seriously ? That's serious talk cock.
How do you expect those elderlies to walk up a flight of stairs with such condition ? Open up your brains people ! This is common sense!
I remember one incident where a close uncle of mine was admitted to the hospital. He had surgery on his spine. I went to visit him one day and brought him home cooked food. I was wondering why! Don't the hospital provide food for their patients? When I went there I saw what the hospital gave him. A FREAKIN BURGER! A burger ? Two pieces of nuggets with a blob of ketchup ,blanket with lettuce and sandwiched with two buns. You're kidding me right? Giving that thing to an elderly who just had a spine surgery and in excruciating pain. You give a bloody burger to him? What the hell are u trying to do ? Kill him?
I know I'm ranting and ranting about all these things and some might think, girl chillax and stop talking crap.
But sorry, im the kind of person who cares about the elderly. They're the ones who need proper care and service.
And it's the government and the younger people to make sure they get a life that's as comfortable as possible. Because they were the generation who helped buid this country into the country it is today where the younger generation can live in !
So yea, that's my thought on the hospital. Pathetic , I hope it changed. Seriously. But I doubt it will.

Friday, 26 August 2011

Youve got to find what you love

So I just read this article by Steve Job. CEO of Apple and Pixar animation studios.
I have to say, this guy really is inspiring.
Steve Job was adopted when he was just a baby . He wentto college but dropped out because his parents savings were not enough to pay for his tuition fees. But after dropping put, he could take classes that interested him rather than sitting for classes that didn't mean anything to him. So he took a calligraphy class and felt intrigued by it. He found out that it was an intriguing art that science can't capture. However he never knew that what he learned in calligraphy class would be applied later on in his life. And it did ! 10 years later when he was designing the Macintosh. It was the first computer that had beautiful typography and proportional spaced fonts. If he never had dropped out of college , he would never have taken this calligraphy course. And Mac would nevehve had these beautiful typography and Windows who copied Mac would never have had them.
Steve job started apple at his parents garage. In 10years, Apple grew to a company worth$2 billion and with over 4,000 employees. And by that tome he was just 30 years old. However, there was some disagreements between partners and himself. Which led to him getting fired. However, he did not give up. Instead he ventured into Establishing a company ie. Pixar animations and NeXT. which led to the creation of the worlds first animated feature film. Toy story. At the end, apple bought over NeXT and he returned to apple.
Steve quoted:
I'm pretty sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired from apple. It was an awful tasting medicine but I guess the patient needed. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life , and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you hhehe found it yet. Keep looking . Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship. It just gets better as the years roll on. Keep looking until you find it. Don't settle.

Steve job was diagnoses with pancreatic cancer. He was expected to live no longer than 6 months. His cancer was incurable . But after a biopsy test, doctors found out that his form of cancer was curable with surgery. He had the surgery and he is fine now.

He the said:
Your time is limited , so don't waste it living someones elses life. don't be trapped in dogma. which is living with the results of other peoples thinking. Don't let the noise of others opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become . Everything else is secondary.

All I have to say after reading this is just that this guy truly is inspiring. And what he says is spot on. I always wonder why am I learning subjects that have no use to me . And that I'm not interested in. I find it a waste of my time. But, of course I cant do anything about it.
As for me, I have many interest: and sometimes it
Overpowers my thinking. And I don't know what I want or where I'm going.
I just hope that I can find what I really am truly passionate about.

Cheers~
Get well soon to Steve job. Legend
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